Taking a Step Back

For the past three months, I've been proudly wearing the title of working fifty-hour weeks while being in a bachelor's program. It's fun having people impressed by the amount I can handle and how productive I can be with managing my time. It almost makes me feel special, like I am the chosen one who can manage going above and beyond without killing myself slowly.

Well, it's safe to say that I am slowly realizing that it's okay not to be doing everything at once. Although I am still engraining it into my brain. During these three months, I've had 6 days out of the week full of work, and one day meant for school. This led to staying up till 3 am doing homework after getting home from work, and then having to get up in the morning for my internship. Time flew because I've continuously been in motion, slowly wearing myself down. Feeling tired and like the sleep I get is never quite enough. That's when I decided to cut down one of my work days, as of this week. In my mind, each side had a paddle, hitting the ball back and forth, deciding whether it was what I needed. Could I push through and maintain going above and beyond in every way? Or was the burnout beginning to creep through my bones, telling me to slow down before I crashed and burned?